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Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Monday, December 9, 2013
Camp College
I never went to camp as a kid. Never left home for weeks to be with other kids my age. Never discovered myself away from home. I'm also a homebody and I'm okay with that. I feel no need to impress anyone with my presence. But being at college for just a semester has already done a number on me. It has been wounding and unpredictable and is already molding me into a tougher human being. My mom told me I was being belligerent the other day and I'm proud of that. College is boring and wasteful and causes me to be extra contemplative and stressed, which is not a good combination in small doses so you can only imagine me now...
I feel ages away from accomplishing anything; I'm trapped. Other college freshman are so full of possibility and drive and maybe I'm wrong but it's discouraging that no one talks about the common struggle of the newbee. Starting this phase of life kind of sucks, to put it bluntly and un-poetically.
To outline a beginner's college experience for those for whom college is a distant memory or to whom the idea is foreign at least:
- you are generally alone (assuming you're far enough away from your parents' house and no one you like enough to talk to from high school attends your university)
- you are alone and on your own (unless your parents don't intend for you to learn any valuable life lessons like supporting yourself and being responsible for your own life)
- you are poor (I don't care who you are you're poor)
- university meal-plan food gets old fast
- if you were challenged in high school, general education classes make you want to trip and fall down a staircase and spend weeks on the verge of death in the hospital because it would be more fun than sitting through class
- if you don't have a car: you're stuck with public transportation and limited destinations
- if you do have a car: your friends are only friends with you to bum rides and you have to pay for parking
- you're paying a shitload (excuse me) and are constantly questioning why because of people like Steve Jobs and pop stars that are 10 years younger and can't sing on key to save their life
- a lot of other things but you get it
I don't mean to be negative but I also do because complaining makes the heart grow fonder of complaining. It's a drug.
The list above is not one you find in college brochures. You will not find it online or in magazines or when you go to tour your number one. They don't tell you these things because college is a business. You're paying a company to teach you how to do something and to give you a piece of paper when you're done that will somehow prove you're qualified for a job even though Wikipedia did most of your papers for you; that doesn't get put on the diploma, by the way.
But college is socially acceptable. Apparently blowing thousands of dollars to be taught things you could teach yourself if you were motivated enough is considered "succeeding in life." We know it's messed up but no one wants to do anything about it because systems and money are security blankets, they make us humans feel like something about real life makes sense instead of accepting that it doesn't. But university is not user friendly and it, again, sucks.
I won't rant much further, you get the message. I just encourage people to find some kind of happiness. Go to college when you want to for what you want to. Don't go for a degree. And don't second guess yourself. Do what you want because you're paying for it. In that regard, college is helpful. It helps to narrow your focus when you realize you can do almost anything you want because you're paying money to go to learn how to do it so might as well get your money's worth.
I don't prentend to know everything about the college experience. I'm only a freshman and everyone's college experience is much different.
So on that note:
Parents: love and respect your children enough to tell them to do what they want and warn them that it will be difficult and challenging - doing what you love is a brave thing
Kids: listen to your parents unless they're crazy; in that case, listen to yourself and do what you want because in college you discover that nothing was ever worth waiting for, that things aren't going to happen unless you make them happen, and that you deserve what everyone else does and no one is better than you but that you aren't better than anyone else either - you don't owe anyone anything unless you decide to
goodnight and wish me luck on finals week good Lord.
also I didn't reread or edit this post for errors so I'm sure it was a fun read!
Thanks for reading my complaints and jumbled realizations
I feel ages away from accomplishing anything; I'm trapped. Other college freshman are so full of possibility and drive and maybe I'm wrong but it's discouraging that no one talks about the common struggle of the newbee. Starting this phase of life kind of sucks, to put it bluntly and un-poetically.
To outline a beginner's college experience for those for whom college is a distant memory or to whom the idea is foreign at least:
- you are generally alone (assuming you're far enough away from your parents' house and no one you like enough to talk to from high school attends your university)
- you are alone and on your own (unless your parents don't intend for you to learn any valuable life lessons like supporting yourself and being responsible for your own life)
- you are poor (I don't care who you are you're poor)
- university meal-plan food gets old fast
- if you were challenged in high school, general education classes make you want to trip and fall down a staircase and spend weeks on the verge of death in the hospital because it would be more fun than sitting through class
- if you don't have a car: you're stuck with public transportation and limited destinations
- if you do have a car: your friends are only friends with you to bum rides and you have to pay for parking
- you're paying a shitload (excuse me) and are constantly questioning why because of people like Steve Jobs and pop stars that are 10 years younger and can't sing on key to save their life
- a lot of other things but you get it
I don't mean to be negative but I also do because complaining makes the heart grow fonder of complaining. It's a drug.
The list above is not one you find in college brochures. You will not find it online or in magazines or when you go to tour your number one. They don't tell you these things because college is a business. You're paying a company to teach you how to do something and to give you a piece of paper when you're done that will somehow prove you're qualified for a job even though Wikipedia did most of your papers for you; that doesn't get put on the diploma, by the way.
But college is socially acceptable. Apparently blowing thousands of dollars to be taught things you could teach yourself if you were motivated enough is considered "succeeding in life." We know it's messed up but no one wants to do anything about it because systems and money are security blankets, they make us humans feel like something about real life makes sense instead of accepting that it doesn't. But university is not user friendly and it, again, sucks.
I won't rant much further, you get the message. I just encourage people to find some kind of happiness. Go to college when you want to for what you want to. Don't go for a degree. And don't second guess yourself. Do what you want because you're paying for it. In that regard, college is helpful. It helps to narrow your focus when you realize you can do almost anything you want because you're paying money to go to learn how to do it so might as well get your money's worth.
I don't prentend to know everything about the college experience. I'm only a freshman and everyone's college experience is much different.
So on that note:
Parents: love and respect your children enough to tell them to do what they want and warn them that it will be difficult and challenging - doing what you love is a brave thing
Kids: listen to your parents unless they're crazy; in that case, listen to yourself and do what you want because in college you discover that nothing was ever worth waiting for, that things aren't going to happen unless you make them happen, and that you deserve what everyone else does and no one is better than you but that you aren't better than anyone else either - you don't owe anyone anything unless you decide to
goodnight and wish me luck on finals week good Lord.
also I didn't reread or edit this post for errors so I'm sure it was a fun read!
Thanks for reading my complaints and jumbled realizations
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